I always suck with titles ~

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I`ll start with the most important thing what is the 10th Anniversary of NEWS. Yes. They are already 10 years old as a group. (and mentally) 

I feel a little shame as a fan. Because everybody says what a real fan I am, because this and that. I`m glad to hear that - of course -, but then if I think back what I was doing before their comeback, I`m disappointed. I did nothing. I didn`t even think about why they are not doing any activities. I can use an excuse that at that time I didn`t really know about tumblr or how to properly follow a band, but yeah... It wasn`t strange to me. Then when they announced that Pi and Ryo withdrawal, I was angry and everything but I thought mostly YamaPi then. Because he was my bias. Then NEWS didn`t show up, and when their countdown started on JE`s website, I`m not sure if I visited it at once even. Maybe once, but then the website already was crashed down because of the fans. Maybe since their comeback I could fully understand what`s being a real fan. It`s not only about you love their music or you have a favorite member. Not at all. I didn`t care about that Pi is not in the band anymore. It was strange, but now I think it`s the best in this way, this is the real NEWS. I realized that in the past I didn`t carefully watch at the others, their faces while singing, their movements, their love towards each other. I can tell that I`m a real fan since their comeback. I know about them a lot, but I wanna know more and more to feel them closer to me. These four guy went through the most hardship as a group I`ve ever heard of. They started with 9 member, right? Then they became 8... then Uchi and Kusano gradually left. Then the shape of the group what fans thought will stay forever was formed. They were amazing back then too. They were the best for me back then too. Then they became four. And 10 years passed. I`m their fan only for 4 years. And now I think for real that if one member left, NEWS wouldn`t be NEWS anymore. I only can repeat myself and say nothing new. They mean the world to me, without their music, them, I couldn`t survive a half day. 

As a group they`ve proven their boundaries among members and fans. Their love towards the fans is so enormous that even haters admit it. If you are a chankap(w)aana, you don`t feel lonely, because these 4 idiots love you more than anybody. This is a real thing, it`s not something that anybody should laugh at. It`ll be harsh or rude but I get upset when somebody say about themselves that they are NEWS fan, but when it comes to anniversary or anything they do nothing. NEWS don`t deserve this! I want the whole world to know/love them although it`s impossible, I`m trying hard to get people into their music, their life, personalities because if somebody really opens their heart towards them, it`s impossible not to fall in love with them. You can`t have a proper reason for why don`t you love them. 

Because.

NEWS has a Masuda Takahisa who thinks of fans` happiness the most, of what would make them smile, even members don`t like it, it doesn`t matter if the fans do. 

NEWS has a Kato Shigeaki whose smartness is unbeatable, his reliable smile makes me feel a kind of safety, his heart is innocent and pure. 

NEWS has a Tegoshi Yuya, who is the strongest human being in my eyes. He is the soldier who protect NEWS and convey the love to them and to us, his girlfriends. :') He can be egoist, immature, i don`t even care unless he keeps his straightforward thinking and energy what always gives me power. 

NEWS has a Koyama Keiichiro. I can`t describe him. He is fatass, air-headed, idiot, naive, and sometimes good for nothing, BUT. His heart is what never changed through hardships. He is somebody I couldn`t say a bad word about even if I wanted to. The greatest human being in the world.

NEWS deserves the most love what a fan can give to a group. So now, after this 10th anniversary when I realized how many 'fan' actually didn`t care about them at all, I ask you who read this blog and maybe know NEWS... If you love them, then love them properly and from the bottom of your heart, because they don`t deserve less. Or leave them instead of acting the non-real-fan. You can love their music but it doesn`t mean you are their fan. Of course I don`t ask you to follow them on the crazy way I do, but I`m actually proud of it. >< Don`t make their feelings go to waste. I don`t think they give you other than happiness. 

So this was the NEWS part of my entry. ^^" Maybe I`m annoying but I think this is a fan`s 'job' too. >_<

Other ~

Yesterday I met my Japanese friend, who came here for 3 weeks. His name is Hiro. He is absolutely crazy and insane! I mean... who is sitting on the train while holding their bags tightly because they are afraid of the robbers? Him. He was so eye-catching... :"D I was normally sitting on the train and he was continuously poking me or looking at me strangely because I talked to a stranger for example or the guy next to me was drumming with his hands while listening to music. And when he is talking it`s somehow funny because of his gestures and expressions, I just couldn`t stop laughing. ><"

We went to the Times Square, where he bought a cheeseburger and while we were waiting for it, he started singing the songs what were played at the nearby. And when he got his cheeseburger he didn`t talk til he eat it.

I was like: 'You were hungry?' 

Hiro: *nodding nodding* 

Me: 'You love to eat, right?'

Him: *nodding nodding* 

Me: 'Japanese people love to eat, right?'

Him: *nodding nodding*

Me: 'You cannot even talk?'

Hiro: *shaking head*

Then we went into a NY gift shop `coz he wanted to buy souvenirs but eventually we were there like 20 minutes and he didn`t buy anything. :'D He bought a T-shirt in the Hard rock cafe, then since it was time, we went back to the station. I mean we wanted to. But somehow we got lost. I don`t even know how, because as I remember we didn`t went back on an other way or I just simply didn`t notice the station. 

I was like: 'So yeah, we got lost.'

Hiro: *laughing*

Me: 'You are with me, of course we get lost!'

Hiro: *still laughing*

Anyway I asked a man to tell me where is it. In English. And he started to talk in Spanish to me. I was like *nodding nodding* : 'Do you speak English?' And he said 'Sorry I thought you were Spanish.'

Me and Hiro: *roflmao*. 

Then the guy: 'Where are you from?'

Me: 'From Hungary.'

He to Hiro: 'You look Spanish.'

Hiro and me: *roflmao*

- He`s got a dark skin but he has a Japanese face so what? -

So he finally explained where is the station. Then I made Hiro sure that he absolutely looks like Japanese, and he said he thinks the same. :) 

We found the station, and I was proud of myself and said to Hiro that thanks to me we didn`t get lost. :)))

But we was looking for the 42th street station, but somehow we ended up at the 50th street`s station. So accidentally.... we walked 8 streets up. 

We was chatting a lot about various things. My mom took him home to Sleepy Hollow. ^^

Since the time I started to watch Asian dramas, I got used to the 'dream topic'. People have to own dreams to live their life fully. They have to pursue something to feel their life is not a waste. It`s my opinion. But I didn`t really know what my dream is. I just lived like a normal teen while I was in Hungary. When I came here, after a time I realized that I don`t know what do I want to do with my life. It just went on and I couldn`t control it. I didn`t have any choice here, only working. But I was a 17 years old pampered teen, it took a lot of time to realize, I really have to do it. I can`t think only about my comfort, here is my family what is may fall apart if we don`t help each other. Now, I`m all ready to work of course, and my bro too. But it`s not the way I want to live my life. Although I love kids, I don`t want to be a babysitter forever. I have possibilities. So now I can tell that i`ve got a dream. It`s a dream I see now as an impossible thing. 

My dream is to graduate in this school year and get into a Hungarian University with my best friend, Chingu. But for the sake of this dream we have to pay the green card what is almost 2000 dollars for one person. So I have to find a job with a good salary. Then... my exams` results must be completed at least 80%. Then... I`ve to get an advanced English language exam. To summarize... while having a full time job, I have to study hard and fight with the time and my energy. I have to spare money, because if we get in the Univ, we are gonna live in an apartment what`s rent is gonna be payed by us. 

It`s a big dream because she is one of my best friends, maybe we are gonna live together, go to each other`s nerve, this is the happiest thing I`ll ever own in my life. Of course only when I`ll fulfill everything before that. This makes me happy. But there is the feeling of the sadness that I have to leave my brother alone. When I think of that I think of myself as the most selfish person on the Earth. 

But the biggest wall is right front of me is the time. I didn`t get any lesson yet and it`s almost October. The time goes by and I`m getting worried. I made a fuss about it and my friends try to help me in everything but Viki has to concentrate her life, she has to study a lot beside working. 

I decided to write these thoughts down only once then I`m not gonna complain about it. ^^" I`ll try my best and believe myself even if things seems impossible. :)

And now I`m going to sleep, I watched videos instead of translating, so tomorrow I have to work hard. ><