My new job. :3

Konnichiwa! ^^

I already wanted to write on Tuesday, but I was so tired, like a zombie. >.> So I got a job, where I have to go on Tue and Thur. I have to take care of a 3 years old boy, whose name is Itay. ^^ Last week, I was there with the prev babysitter to have a training day, and I already was there once last year for a night. :) But last year I haven`t see Itay, because I just had to take care the two biggest children. But on Tue and Thur Itay has no preschool, that`s why they need me. :) So my first day was on Thu. I have to be there by 9, but I was late. Have I ever mentioned it that I hate travel by train? I always get lost somewhere at the subway station. So I missed two express train, because I was waiting at a wrong platform. Because on my training day, me and Niki got on the train at that platform. And on Tue the A train didn`t come on that platform, only the C. I saw the A, because the other platform was at the same floor, but I didn`t know, that I have to take the express or the local train. So in the end I asked somebody, which train I have to take. So finally I got there, I mean, I had to take an other train for two more stops. But when I get on the F train, it was already 9 o` clock. And the top if all of that, I came up from the station at the wrong place, because F subway station has several exit. I was completely lost, and I went to the wrong way, so thought I should call Anah - my boss - to tell her, I`m lost. She said it`s because I was in the wrong car of the F train. I have to get on the last car, then I can come out at the right exit. I came out two streets before. But I finally got there, I was running like an idiot. Who would wanna be late at their first day? 

But she wasn`t angry at all. I thought they are in hurry to somewhere and waiting for me but fortunately not ^^ I got in, said hi to Itay, and then I attacked the fridge saying "I wanna drink!". I dried out like a desert. I made my first day. XD 

Itay is an angel, I love him! He has his own things, though. For example sometimes I am talking to him and he pretends he doesn`t hear me. And it`s quite hard do explain to a 3 years old that people should listen to each others when somebody is talking. Especially because he doesn`t listen even when I`m telling him this. XD It`s quite tiring to deal with a 3 years old through 8 hours. We went to the playground so when he is playing I can sit down and take a little rest. On the way, he always go up to the rocks around the trees on the sidewalk. 

By the way, it`s hard to understand him, sometimes I have no idea what he is want. xD So if he needs something I start showing him the stuffs, waiting for he says 'yes'. ><

But when he is sleeping I am so bored. .-. So I started to learn Japanese. xDDD 

I could leave at 4, so could I yesterday. ^^ But because of I rant on Tue, my legs hurt so much... TvT 

Yesterday was raining, so I was so... soooo sleepy, when I woke up. I always wake up 1 and a half hour before I leave, so that I can eat my breakfast calmly and I watched a few song of the Utsukoi concert. Somehow, when I looked at Tego`s face, I just got power. ^^ It was a good feeling. So then, I decided to use that power for the work. :3 When I left, I met an old lady in the elevator. And she said, I`ve got a nice legs. It made me so happy! ^_^ 

Thursday is the 'cleaning day'. So when Itay is sleeping I have to do vacuum the house. This vacuum is so, so big and heavy. -.- I actually was sweating so much. :') When I finished, I was bored again. xD But Anah woke Itay up, because he slept too much, so I took him down to give him lunch. His lunch was pasta filled with cheese, but he didn`t want to eat it. He wanted to eat apple instead. But I told him he has to eat his lunch, after that he can eat apple. So I took the apple from him, but still... he lay down to the kitchen floor and didn`t get up. So I take the food, and showed him. I tried it and said how yummy it is. So finally he tried it too. Then I said him I`ll put the apple on the table and if he finished his lunch he can eat it. And I made him to eat his lunch. >_< Then his mom got home, and I could leave. When I almost closed the door Itay said he wants to give me a hug. I was so happy. ^^ 

By the end of the day, I was horribly tired and my whole body was in pain. T.T Now it`s better a little bit. ^^

My mom finished my Tego-pullover and I love it! ^_^

And she just called me now. She made an appointment at the hairdresser for tomorrow! ^_^ Can`t wait! :3

On the other hands, last night wasn`t that good. xD Shortly, Viki wrote something to me, what I took seriously. It`s about that I ignore her. And then she went offline. I thought it`s something wrong, and that she is right. I started to think about myself again. And I always keep questioning myself that what do ppl love in me. Why I am their friends and what is good about me. I keep hurting people and keep being selfish and so on... so I cannot understand what they see in me to keep them stay beside me. 

But today she said that it was only a joke... and I was like... 'Are you kidding me?'. I almost wrote an entry yesterday about that and.... it was only a joke. -.- 

Well... you know, actually I think she is right. I always want to see who cares about me, so I am waiting for them to write to me. But I never do the same. This stupid pride.... -.-' I`m sorry for being such a horrible friend. 

So yesterday night I wasn`t that happy. Because besides this, I got an e-mail about the Mediafire suspended a video in my account. So I had to rename all files so that hopefully they won`t recognize them. I was deadly tired, sleepy, I thought my best friend hates me, I was angry at myself, and recognized that there are only a few people who visit my News fansite. And I wanted to write an entry in this mood. XD 

Now I`m going to translate and study. ^^

Bye-bye ~

Chu ♥

I want my Bob!!! ^_^ ♥♥