Friendship and other stuffs.... :)

Konnichiwa!

Honestly, I wasn`t really planning to continue this blog but then I thought if I want to write something just for myself, I can do it here. :3 Besides.... a friend of mine just keeps whining to write. :3 ♥ 

First of all, I got a new laptop again. This is an HP Pavilion and according to my bro this is twice better for games than his. When he said that, I just started laughing coz I had no idea about that. I just bought this, because on the previous one, they couldn`t reinstall to windows 7.  And I hate windows 8. Seriously, it just restarted continuously. 

Recently I`m thinking of something. Don`t you think, that the friendship amongst boys is enviable? I think so. My bro has a lot of friends and they are coming along so well I am jealous. It doesn`t matter who is his best friend, if they have a common range of interesting, it`s the most important. They don`t get jealous of each other whether the other who likes much or less. I have three best friend. And I am really afraid of something. We cannot trust each other... I mean. If I make one more best friend, that means anyway I will only love her from now on? I think some of them thinks that. And not only with us... This is true for the most of the girls. I was like that back then. I got jealous suddenly when my friends started to get along well with somebody else. That`s why they couldn`t like me anymore. ^^" Now I`m still like that but I don`t make it obvious. Because I know it`s a foolish thing. I know that my friends love me. This is not being egoist, this is being truthful in our friendship. But I`m afraid that one of my friends doesn`t believe that I still love her despite that I have other friends. I don`t want her to think that way because it`s a horrible feeling. I want her to know that she was my first best friend who accepted me as I am. I`m not thankless and I completely need her. It`s just like that... we cannot talk to each other that much and I don`t really like writing long letters about what happened to me and then she answers in a same long letter. I`d like to talk to her calmly when both of us is free and just sit down before the webcam and just talk and talk. This is what I need now. 
So I`m gonna talk to her. :) 

A happiest topic. :3 Tonight I was dreaming about Shige. >< We were kissing and it`s so embarrassing to write that down. xD But really... He is my second bias besides Bob and I just love him. So I had a terrible night coz I woke up so much but I had a beautiful dream. >__< *red face* Him. ->  
Yesterday I was making pancake-cake. .... You know what is that? This is a cake of pancakes. I mean. This is Hungarian pancake, not the American style. Never mind. When I am making the pancakes, usually just throwing it up to turn it. But this pan was a little bit different from I had at home, and at the beginning I couldn`t do it. I was so upset that I just throw the pan to the cooker and say "I won`t do it!". Then of course I finished it and it is so delicious. :3 Honestly I really can`t eat that much sweet things because I need to loose weight until the summer. 

There was a day... when I knew what I wanna write but I just forgot it.... :') Really I just keep forgetting and forgetting. So it doesn`t matter when, if it pops to my mind, I`m gonna write it. ><  If I wake up in the middle of the night and think 'Oh! That was I wanted to write!' I`ll turn on my laptop and write. xD 

Sayonara (ni sayonara ><) <---- what is it? Exactly this! :

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