Talent and drawings... and friends. :3

Sometimes I ask myself why I am not able to do what I like perfectly... Today I saw a lot of drawings on Deviantart and they was amazing! Just... amazing. There are a lot of talented people in the world... and I am just a... potato. So today my confidence just flied away and I think I will never see it again. :'D But it`s okay. I always knew I don`t have that much talent but still I love drawing. :3 And I`m gonna draw Song Seung Hyun no matter what. >< I hate him `coz he has a perfect 'undrawable' face. >_< 

I have a friend who is also love drawing and she is so talented. I always get inspiration when I see her drawings. :3 So dear Bob, I`m gonna win and draw your completely perfect face. ;) 

Other topic. Today we`ve talked to my Dad on webcam. I missed him since it was his birthday on 15th but we couldn`t reach him. Today we talked through 3 hours. The best thing is that I showed him KPOP MV-s and he liked them. :3 Since I know what he likes, I showed him the SNSD - Twinkle and Dancing Queen and the Man`s first love from FT Island and finally the Gangnam Style. And it was funny for him. :') I`m glad he liked them. :3 I`m always so happy when I show something to my friends and they like it. That`s why sometimes I`m too annoying to show my fave videos again and again but they aren`t really interested. :') It`s okay, everybody has a different taste. ><  

I really don`t wanna whining but my best friend doesn`t have internet now and I haven`t talk to her since a while. If she doesn`t show up soon, I`m gonna find her! >_< I can`t talk to them that much because of the time zones and one of my best friend isn`t online that much either. Sometimes I feel I can`t take it anymore and just going depressed. There are times when I`m just sitting before the computer and staring the Twitter or Facebook but nothing happens. So I decided not to be online that much as before coz it`s gonna kill me emotionally. ^^" Actually I have things to do like learning Japanese, guitar and the drawing. :3

Fortunately when everybody is online (it`s almost only at the weekends) I can have fun and talk to them. We just fangirling and talking about stupid things. But I wanna see them on webcam at least. >< I think I deserve it... don`t I? :P I`m really thankful them because most of us didn`t even meet personally at all but we are all soulmates. This is like a miracle, isn`t it? :) >< We all have different personality but get along perfectly. Well... Our common point is that we are all perverted. :') Okay, I`m not... Actually I think I `m the representative of pureness.... :'D *proud face* I mean... I try to be but it`s hard sometimes. >< Okay, I don`t wanna be beat up by one of them so let`s see an other topic. xD  

Oh... Gosh... But today I only can talk about them. O.o It doesn`t matter, they will be hiccuping maximum. >< 

Since I`m talking about my friends... Have you ever felt that your friends aren`t counting on you? I mean... when they are upset or sad or something. I want them to share with me, even though I cannot help them. Yeah... this is my other annoying point. ^^" There was times when one of my best friend - who is a boy - went through hard times but he didn`t mention it, I just knew it from his teacher. (Because I asked her about him when he didn`t go to school... Am I annoying, right? xD) And when I asked him, he lied to me and avoided the topic. But I didn`t give up, and through half an our - til we get home with bus - I was keep asking him why did he miss the school. He was so frustrated and I think he just wanted to give me a punch. :') And he told it to my bro too... Since then I never asking but I get angry if my friends didn`t tell me something or said they don`t wanna bother me.... I mean... Bitch please, you are my friends and I am yours! If you wanna I can stay up all the night just to listen your whining. :') Am I overreacting? xD Just let it be... ><"

I really talk too much, right? :') I`m almost sure I forgot something but never mind. Since it`s late and I have to wake up early tomorrow, just going to sleep. :3

Annyeong ~ 

Music of the day: FT Island - Girls don`t know